Monday, January 10, 2011

Life reflection

This year I will be 23 years old. I feel as though this year is a huge turning point in my life. I would like to take a few minutes to recap my 22 years. In my 22 years I have had 6 families. My biological family, 3 foster families, 1 in which would remain my family to this day and 2 adoptive families, 1 that didn't quite work out and 1 that became who I call my mom and dad:) This year will mark 10 years since I have been adopted, making it the longest time I have been with 1 family and lived in the same town. I was a member of the basketball team and softball team and was a 6 year member of the swimming team in which I was the captain my Senior year. I graduated from High School with Honors and then furthered my Education and went to College. I went off WI for a year to major in social work at Carthage College only to move back to St. Peter for the love of my life and went to Gustavus for Elementary Education in which I will graduate this May. I have had 5 jobs my entire life which include, Holiday Gas Station, Michaels, Post office, Custodial and a Group Home. I have been dating my best friend for 4 years this April and we have currently just bought a 5 acre farm. This fall I will be student teaching and then will be looking for a teaching job.

I have come so far and have accomplished so much in my life but there is so much more to look forward too. I get to look forward to decorating a house, living with my boyfriend, having a career, getting married, having babies and making a family, watching my children grow up, all the moments and adventures with family and friends, growing old with Brad and becoming grandparents. These are all things that I want to accomplish in my life. I still have over half of my life to live.

All these thoughts have been on my mind this month, especially with the anniversary of my brothers death on Friday. January 14th 2007 was the day that my brother passed away at the age 23. When I think of all the things that he had accomplished in his life and all the hardships, moments and memories we have of his 23 years of life just makes me think about all the things he never got to do and experience. What would he look like, what would he be doing, would he have a family? I'm so fortunate to have all these things to look forward to but I feel guilty that I get to do so and Zach never did. I miss him a lot this week.

This weekend I went up to Cambridge to visit my family and every time I go there It stirs up so many emotions. Every thing about that town makes me miss Zach. Usually every time I drive there I stop at the cemetery on the way into town. The last time I went up there I found it hard to go but eventually stopped on the way out of town but this time was different. I couldn't bring myself to go this time. This year it just really hurt. It brought tears to by eyes even driving through the intersection by the cemetery.

This year I plan to live life to the fullest, so this year is for you Zachy. Miss and love you

3 comments:

Anonymous said...

Korrina,
I got the chills reading this post. I don't know you as well as I should (and hope to change that soon) but when I first met you, when I coached you in softball...I knew you were special. I could see the drive in your eyes already.
As I have gotten to know you more, as a family member and friend, I can still see the drive in your eyes. You're always working toward a goal and you don't let anything in your way!
Continue pushing through and take time to enjoy your many accomplishments! I'm sure your brother is so proud!
With love,
Nikki

raggedy ash said...

An awesome reflection on your life thus far! We are so lucky to be in your life and I can't wait to see what your "Zachy" year brings!

We love you so much and you make us soooo proud, kocho.

Unknown said...

YOU ROCK! Cannot put into words the amount of love and emotion I feel for you child!We knew too the first day you walked into our lives you would remain a part of us forever!
You will always be one of my "girls"!
I too, wonder all of those things about our Zach,and than am so overwhelmed with "Zach" stories that ...am comforted by all the life he lived.Everyday feel the loss,and am POSITIVE he too is proud of the woman you are becoming!
"I love you forever,I'll like you for always wherever your living my baby you'll be."
your other mom!